Rejection

I know it is true, but I hate to accept that I was rejected
Even though it hurts my lips dare to smile when I look at his face

My eyes constantly search for his perfect picture
My heart beats faster when I hear his voice
I feel conscious in his presence
I close my eyes to remember him
I know I was rejected by him but still he greets with a smile, speaks to me as if I never spoke to him
I wish it had never happened,  the rejection
My foolish attempt kept me in a crazy situation
I know it is hard to accept that he will never accept me
I don''t know what hurts more
         -rejection or the friendliness after rejection

I know it is true that I rejected her
Even though, my rejection has no particular reason I happen to do that
I like her, but I don't know why I did not accept her that moment
My answer is 'NO' and I thought my answer would always be 'NO'
But things changed and I realized my mistake
My mistake has put me in a tough situation
The expression she gave me after rejecting her proposal is unforgettable
I don't know how she reacts if I speak anything about that day
She thought she is good at hiding
But she, being a poor actress cant be ignored to notice, especially by me
The way she is smiling as if nothing happened is making me crazy
Her ignorance, her avoidance, her cautiousness of being caught is unbearable
The silence in her eyes has a special meaning
I don't know who rejected whom
I don't know what is hurting me more
                                  -after all I felt like, being rejected by her

It is disturbing, I mean you are disturbing
Do not talk to me,do not argue with me
It is better if you do not look at me
Even though I am longing for a genuine talk, sincere smile and honest apologies from you
Sorry, I should say apologies to you since I am the one who disturbed you by nonsensical confessions
I know you do have feelings for me and you tried expressing that

But I am afraid I would never forgive you for breaking my heart
You said you are feeling rejected ,but the truth is you rejected me....
You rejected me, I hope you realize that
You are flirting with other girls in order to avoid me but in reality I am enjoying it to avoid you
That moment, I felt too embarrassed in front of you, I couldn't show you my hurt that you have given to  me as a token of friendship,but now your realization that you have done a mistake for hurting me and silent gestures that says "will you accept me after what I have done" means a lot to me.
I am not expecting a revenge kind of thing after all I am expecting a sincere confession from you which means a lot to me. And you know that too
I don't know what is hurting me more
                                -your rejection or your acceptance after rejection



I know I have been too harsh in rejecting you
I can't forgive myself for this

But sometimes, I feel that it does'nt matter when I realize that there is a person, there is always a person who loves me
She may not know about her but I do know more
She knew it that I do have feelings for her
She knew it that I am trying to apologise her for the mistake I have done
She knew it that she can't get back to me so easily forgetting everything, Eventhough I love her
I realized that time will bring us together
Hoping the day comes soon
I don't know what makes me more happy
                      -she accepting my apologies or ME

Life seems difficult sometimes-
Even though we have choice to take our own decisions, we choose wrong things
People seems difficult to handle, when some unexpected emotions come into picture
Situation seems difficult to manage,Even though we have planned accordingly

We choose to decide with our mind rather than our heart
When we choose with our heart the circumstances puts us in hell
We sometimes don't know what is happening around us,Even though we had a chance to control them
Problems without solutions come into existence,Even though we know we are the ones responsible for it.
Solutions to the problems can be found, Only by our prior avoidance
Sometimes we loose what we have within a second and gain what we never aim to
We don't what we gain and what we lost
This is not just ending, it is just beginning for making right choices and right decisions at right time.
We don't know which one to give priority
                      -- choices taken following our HEART or MIND